Monday, August 30, 2021

Circle of Life


Today, I said my goodbyes to GG….

I have never experienced someone’s last breath on Earth until today. It was by far the most

powerful experience I have ever had. 

My grandmother embodied hope, faith, laughter, trust and so much more. The relationships

she created with people were forever. Every moment, big or small, I had her by my side. She

was pivotal for so many people, leading them down a path of goodness and faith. One of my all time favorite places to visit on the web are sites sponsored by The Greater  Good, a company dedicated to always giving back to populations or causes in need. One that grandma would support is The Hunger Site, donating proceeds to kids in need of food. 

The moments leading up to her death changed dramatically with the progression of her

Alzheimer's. When my mom and I were with her, she had moments of knowing who we

were and not knowing who we were. One thing that did not change was how she felt when

we were around. We would laugh. We would cry. We would joke. We would recite the Lord’s

prayer, which she could recite word for word until the last moment. My grandma named a

few people hours before dying. A major moment was when she lifted her arms and out

came the words, “Hey good lookin” which I know in my heart of hearts was her meeting

my grandpa in Heaven. It was a magical moment. Minutes later she took two more

breaths and she was gone. 

This is a season of mourning and remembrance. I cherish my memories with this wonderful

person and try to live as she did; with humility. I will begin working on how we will celebrate

her life through images, song, and story.  Images from Deposit Photos is a great place to find pictures and paintings to capture such a life. I know my heavy heart will continue to heal with time. As my grandma would say, “This too shall pass.”

Growing Pains

My teenage years were effortless yet tiring

My 20’s were adventurous yet confusing

My 30’s have been stable yet different

Throughout the seasons of life, we experience different motivations, different body sizes, different stressors and different means of happiness. As I have gone from the rainforest of Costa Rica to the mountains of Switzerland, I have learned that with each season of life we have growing pains. I have spent the majority of my life putting others before myself and loved every moment. I taught middle school and English learners. I served as a linguist in the military. I have been an elementary administrator and now, I enter a new season and feel the pains of grieving my hard work in education in anticipation of sharing my story with others as a part-time consultant and full-time mom. I will go from wearing belted wool pants to mom jeans! I am humbled by my adventures that have shown me so many parts of this amazing Earth yet eager to see more. I am taking a leap from being a principal to staying home with my three children after an incredibly challenging year and half through the world’s most recent turmoil coined “the pandemic”. Even though I share my inner struggles with my best friend who is also my husband, I needed to write about this major transition to grieve one season in order to begin another. I am so proud of where my career has led me. I now need to center myself with deep breathing and words of encouragement as I put my full self into parenting with no other priorities at hand. I am nervous, but ready.